Wednesday 31/03

So, altogether a pretty decent day. I still have the constant oppression that I am not popular or deserving, and when I do my usual kb, I think people tolerate me rather than like me. However, what I have learnt is that I'm probably easier to like (once you get past the initial signs of arrogance) than to tolerate. If that makes sense. I can literally feel my paranoia levels sinking, and start believing compliments. My confidence is still low, and I still want to show off in training, but hopefully that's just a matter of time. Always found it funny that the less confident I am the more arrogant / unapproachable I get.