Sunday 04/03

Complete meltdown. No comments. Theory - the reason I'm so self-critical and fault-finding is probably because it seems the easier option. Imagine a scenario where someone upsets me. If I'm to blame, they're still ok and do like me. If they're to blame, they don't like me at all. So I eventually take most blame on my shoulders, because I want to see the best in some people. And destroy myself in the process! I'm scared of saying "well, actually you're wrong". Not at the time, mind, I'll happily jump to all sorts of conclusions. But when I think it over afterwards, my thoughts nearly always benefit the other part(s).