29/10/2010

Always trying to get to the next level. In theory, I'm a great supporter of Buddhism, live and enjoy the present. But my naturally competitive instinct makes me want to be better. It is much better controlled now, but I still get scared of competitive events. In my case, beating people up in a ring. Not scared of the pain. Just scared of thinking I haven't done well enough, and thinking I should do better. Can't stand defeat, unless it's by someone who's clearly better than me. Not too many of those around.