14/08/2011

I am torn. On one hand I seek the wisdom of Taoism and Buddhism, which encourages patience, grace, going with the flow, give up on anger and most of all, live in the present. I often want to change myself to live by that code.

On the other hand, I'm a great admirer of Nietzsche's, who want me to be who I am, accept who I am, do what is right for me.

I'm not a natural Taoist, instead I'm angry, philosophising, volatile, proud, and have equal feelings of superiority and inferiority. And I often want to change the world to fit my image of it.

The only solution I see is to temper my more ferocious bouts of emotion by reading. But I can't be both myself and a born again Taoist, so is this way dividing me more than unifying me?